Do I REALLY want to hear from God?

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you,
for my power is made perfect in weakness."
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,
so that Christ's power may rest on me. 
(2 Corinthians 12:8-9)

I've been working on memorizing this passage for a while. It seems appropriate.  I mean, how many times have I found myself pleading with the Lord to deliver me from some frustrating or painful circumstance and then overwhelmed by His apparent resistance to answer my cry?...too many times to count...

This morning though, as I continued my current study through the book of Isaiah, I was blown away by a verse I read in chapter 30.  I read it and then read it again and again, certain that the Lord was speaking to me, but a little baffled by what He seemed to be saying!

O People of Zion, who live in Jerusalem,
you will weep no more. 
How gracious he will be when you cry for help! 
As soon as he hears, he will answer you. 
(Isaiah 30:19)

Did you catch the second half of that verse?
It says, "As soon as he hears, he will answer you."

AS SOON AS HE HEARS!?

EXCUSE ME?!  That doesn't sound right.
Like, as soon, as soon?!  Like, right now? Immediately?  At the very moment when He hears me, He will answer me?!

This is a hard one to figure out, don't you think?  I am certain that there have been many times that I cried out to the Lord and then waited days, weeks, months, or even years to get an answer!  So how can He say He'll answer "as soon as He hears!" ?

Perhaps the issue though is that many times, when I cry out for the Lord's help, I don't actually want Him to answer me.

Perhaps what I really want is His quiet nod of agreement with whatever grievance I claim or desire I present.  Maybe I don't actually want to know what He has in mind.  I don't want Him to intervene according to His divine wisdom.  I just want Him to agree with what I think is best and make it happen. 

Could it be that I don't actually want God to answer me, I want Him to obey me!?

"Oh Lord, have mercy on me!  Forgive me for my foolish arrogance and horrible lack of faith and surrender!  You are God and you are always good!  You are all knowing and the ultimate source of wisdom.  I do trust you Lord!  Help me to trust you!  Teach me to listen for your answer, because you promise it will come and help me to humbly accept it if your answer is 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' "